Oooh, if I can say food I'd probably want...breakfast. It would be nice if I could get some french toast, a cheese omelet, and bacon right about now. But it is far too late for me to cook something like that.

I want this mini-semester of college to be over. I am taking three courses and I am busy as hell.

Part of me just wants college done and out of the way and another part of me wants to put off grad school as much as possible. All this work just makes me crazy. I guess a job without school would be really nice.

Hey, I like this topic. I could really go for a month long vacation from my husband and kids, and all responsibility in general. But since that isn't going to happen, I've come up with something more realistic. I'm getting out of the dreary state of Washington, only for a week, all by myself, with no tag alongs. What I want is for the end of August to hurry up and get here so I can get out of here for a while.

Heart's latest desire? What it's been for far too long- I need a girlfriend.

Right now it's to memorize all of Hamlet's speech in Hamlet, the "To be or not to be" one. And to finish my movie.

I want at least an A- this year. (I desperately need it for grad school)

But since I have a prof this semester who has a really thick German accent and I cannot understand a word he says it's gonna be a tough one.

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Having been to Melbourne recently, I have come to this conclusion - I really, really, REALLY want to live there. Not much chance of that happening, though, considering that I'm 16, unemployed, and no one in my family has any desire to move. God, I didn't realise what a boring shithole my city is until I saw a REAL city.

To buy a new pair of Timberland Shoes. I want one.

A MacBook Pro.

I also want a PlayStation3. But it's not out yet. I can't wait.

To ace my Midterms, tomorrow through Friday!

Man, I just want to stop feeling like shit. This always happens to me a couple times a year, and I feel totally hopeless, as if there's no possibility of me ever feeling good again. When I'm feeling good, I can't ever imagine feeling bad again, and when I feel bad, I can't ever imagine feeling good again. The major problem I have now is that I was going out with this girl who is everything I could ever want, and I haven't contacted her for a while now because I can't stand to look anybody in the face. If I fuck this up I'm afraid my depression will take on a more permanent character.

This is when Jason Molina soothes my pain, at least a little. Sad music doesn't make you feel happy, but it's about the only thing that'll make you feel something, and that's better than paralyzing emptiness. I think I'm gonna go listen to Pyramid Electric Co or Didn't It Rain.

It's also the most depressing day of the year!

AND Everybody-Be-An-Asshole day!

My heart's latest desire is to exploit my english teacher by letting her find out that I found her looking for singles on Friendster.

That is so freaking HighLarious.

"Say whaaa...?"

My desire is to spit in the face of people who don'y want to be cool! Like Carlito's way

What did I do...?

You betrayed Chris Masters!!

I just got on board the confusion train!

I've become kind of interested in a girl for the first time in quite a while, and it's messing with my moods. I get really easily fooled and confused in these situations. One day'll be the greatest day ever and the next something happens, and I get all depressed. This afternoon I felt so sorry for myself, I wanted to go to sleep and wake up next week. But now, I listened to some music and forgot about what was worrying me so terribly before, and I feel great. I keep thinking about my life and what's good and bad about it, how I can improve. I have a lot of things I need to figure out. I also randomly get all self concious and that pisses me off, but then an hour later I'll remember how happy I am with myself.

Ahhh I want to figure it out!

Don't worry, you'll never figure it out I'm impressed to see that you're only 14... I started to think like that when I was 17. Mmm...could be a great topic: when did you started to think for real?

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Originally posted by eggTweedyegg:
Don't worry, you'll never figure it out I'm impressed to see that you're only 14... I started to think like that when I was 17. Mmm...could be a great topic: when did you started to think for real?

Exactly the point I tried to make in my introduction! I started to realize myself and develop my opinions on life and the world around me during the low point of my life, when I turned 13. In starting to think for real, I also became really frustrated with everyone in my grade who didn't, and that's when I changed my group of friends to the few who were almost as mature as I am. Someone should start a topic on this, I think it would be really interesting. Good idea Tweedy.